| 2012 | 
So today I was on my way home from practice and I see a classmate walking home along the sidewalk of the school, it’s already too late for me to stop so I decide to just continue down the road and make the extra effort to go around the neighborhoods to look for him to drive him home. So when I get back to intersection across the school (5 minutes later) I don’t see him so I just head home. Well I see him on the sidewalk and I roll down my window. ME: Do you want a ride home Austin? So the point is that he basically talked to me like I was a creeper trying to kidnap him… I was just trying to be nice. It was so dark and I would have wanted a friend to take me home if I had to walk in the dark too? I don’t understand, never will I give a shit about anyone on the streets again.
HIM: No.
ME: Are you sure! I’ll give you a ride home!
HIM: NO it’s okay.
ME: Where do you live I’ll take you home, I live like right there!
HIM: No I’m going to a meeting anyways.
ME: Okay then…
VENT RANT: 1) My birthday’s coming up and I hate birthdays because I always feel obligated to make everyone else happy. It’s my day, not yours. 2) Everyone’s leaving for college, Hawaii, Washington, Idaho, Corvallis, Eugene, everywhere and I hate talking about summer and college because I know that once that hits, it’s all over. Teenage dream turns into adult hood AKA “deal with your own shit because you’re on your own.” 3) My dad, I saw him today, I miss him. He has no one left but Charlie and Aimee. I can’t do anything to help him but I want to so much. 4) My mom, I’ve been ignoring her for the past week, been going out every single day, doing my own thing. It’s lonely when you try to be independent. It’s really lonely. What do I do? Go to college and leave my mom and dad, or stay home and be forever lonely? 5) Who are my friends? Will they stick with me when college hits? Will I ever be able to find what I want to major in? 6) Everyone’s leaving Old Navy, all the old workers that got hired with me. All that’s left are the new workers, I don’t want them to leave me. I don’t want to leave. It’s a steady job, I enjoy working there, I’m good at what I do, but no one wants to stay. No one wants to keep the same pattern, everyone wants to move on with their lives. But what is there to move on to?
(Source: foreverawezome, via supjerbear)
Happy Chinese New Years! Spending it with me, myself, and I. I don’t even know what family is anymore.
Note to self: Cheer the fuck up you whiny bitch. You’re going to be okay, you’re better off anyways.
